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In the darkness

In darkness I find myself thinking
I wonder how and why
So many questions unanswered
It hurts
I can’t sleep
Feels like my heart’s going to pop out
Frustration
Intimidation
Eyes tearing up
Can’t make the frown go away
Feeling so lost in gaze
Like I’m running in an impossible maze
Walking around blind
Not knowing
Just thinking
Starting to go crazy
I’m so baffled of the situation
So taken off guard
I wanna see you all the time
But I’m too scared to
Afraid
Frightened
I’m sitting alone in the darkness
All alone
Just thinking of you

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Et levende sted

Langt ned i sør, på et levende sted
løper løver og aper, i ro og i fred
Barna drar voksne til Kardemomme by
Der alle de voksne blir barn på ny
og hvis du vil bade, i sklier og vann
så har vi vårt eget, utrolige badeland
Og hvis du vil leke, klatre og skli
da er det i  jungelland du vil bli
når du er lei av dyr og av vann
så gå og besøk Kaptein Sabeltann
Der penger vil fly avgårde litt fort
er båtbasaren der alt kan bli gjort
en spillplass for de som vil spille og vinne
og garantert en del ansatte finne
I den levende parken kan alt gå ann
Det er Dyreparken utenfor Kristiansand

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Invisible

When i want you to see me, im invisible
when i walk across the street, im invisible
when i run along the beach, im invisible
when i wave at you, im invisible
when i try talking to you, im invisible
when i scream for help, im invisible

but when im sad and want to be alone, im too visible
when i wanna sink into the ground, im visible
when i daydream and stare into the air, im visible

when i want to be visible im invisible
when i want to be invisible, im visible!

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Intimited

A feeling that’s sneeking up behind me is so confusing
and it makes me shiver. It’s distracting that
I’m attracted to such a guy who wants
what I want to give, but do I want more?
Is it really enough what he wants from me,
or do I actually need more? Want more?
It’s abstract
It’s disorienting
I’m attracted to a guy that’s attracted to me
now what is my problem? I’ll tell you what
my problem is. I am a girl that’s what.
It’s a fact, guys are intimidated by girls and feelings.
Yes I want it all. I want the perfect guy, I want
the perfect life, I want the perfect house and
the perfect car. I want it all! But you know what…
I am actually considering the possibility of making
you my guy, and considering my standards…
You should be honored to have made it this far.
But still you’re telling me you’re intimidated
just because of the fact that I like you.
Would you like it better if I liked you but didn’t show it?
Or maybe if I didn’t really like you at all?
Consider what your preferences are before you
cut me out, when you really should is cut me a slack!

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I am, am I?

Alone, in the presence of others
together, all alone
Fragile, amongst the strongest
Fierce, in the dark
Tempted, but well hidden
Alive, inbetween death
Real, still fake
True, with lies
Empty, when half-full
Filled, to the brink
Half, yet whole

I am what I am, or am I?

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I wish…
I wish I could feel
I wish I could know
I wish I could sense
What you won’t show

I wish you would tell me
What I don’t want to hear
Because I’m scared of the answer
You’d whisper in my ear

I wish I could see
Through you and me
And not be so blind
When you are on my mind

Do you like her, like you said you liked me?
Do you want her, like you said you wanted me?
Would you kiss her, the way you kissed me?
Would you tell her, all you told me?

I want you to know this, so please don’t lead me on
I know I’ve got no right, to ask you what’s going on
I wish you would tell me
Without me begging you to
But you’re not mine, I get it
I just don’t want to be number two

I wish… I wish…
I wish there could just be me and you

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Your friend

When I’m gone, I’ll be there
during agony and despair
When I’m lost, I’ll be found
Just listen to the sound

The sound of a whisper
closing up behind
I will be your guide
when you are going blind

When you’re hurt, I’m your shield
I’ll be first onto the field
When you’re sad, I’m your tears
I’ll remove all your fears

The fears of the dangers
lying there behind
in the shadows of your heart
where you again are blind

To be fair, I will say
until the break of day
I every day will spend
trying to be your friend

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It’s almost like i like you

The way you talk, the way you act
I just can’t explain how it’s all intact
it’s just insane how i like you this much
but all we kinda do is tuch
i wanna know how you feel
so that you can’t steal
my heart, ’cause its fragile you know
I can’t just always put on a show
I’m starting to get these emotions
and they can’t be cured with potions
or drinks as they nowadays are called
but you know, it’s not your fault
You’re just a guy
and i don’t really know why
I’m not more protected around you
but I do trust your words to be true
And when i kiss your lips at night
It feels like it’s all just right
i like touching your shoulders
’cause they’re big as boulders
I find that so sexy, really!
with you I’m never chilly
I really want you to be mine
if so, I’ll be forever thine

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When…

When my eyes meet yours
I feel this force
It’s breaking me down
I feel like a clown

When my hand touches yours
I feel this force
My body starts shaking
And my heart starts aching

When my fingers tickles yours
I feel this force
I want it. Then I don’t
Can have it, but I won’t

When my chest is close to yours
I feel this force
Containing this secret pain
But still I must abstain

When my knees nudges yours
I feel this force
It hurts saying stop
But I’m not just a drop

When my words meet yours
I feel this force
If you want me, just say so
And to you I at once will go

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The glass half-empty
On the walk of shame, i’m to blame
within convent bars, might as well be mars
no face can be sighted, worlds reunited
in the lost and found, was a silent sound
tastes sweet as cream, of which i would dream
lying on the fatal floor, behind a locked down door
will i fire see, when life closes down on me?
will i be drenched, in satan’s hard defense?
will i ever see God’s face, or will i be lost in gaze?
I shan’t survive this, cause i received the dying kiss
love is unclear, it just did disappear
can i never be saved, after how i behaved
i am closing down, on my head a satan’s crown

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